Top 5 Favorite Bands

  • BORNS
  • Cold War Kids
  • Damien Rice
  • Muse, the Hullabaloo Album
  • Portugal. The man
Showing posts with label being real. Show all posts
Showing posts with label being real. Show all posts

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Substantially less cynical then usual: Flow

F L O W

f l o w   i s   t h e   m e n t a l   s t a t e   o f   o p e r a t i o n   i n   w h i c h   a   p e r s o n   i s            f u l l y    i m m e r s e d   i n   a   f e e l i n g   o f   e n e r g i z e d   f o c u s,   f u l l      i n v o l v e m e n t,  a n d   e n j o y m e n t. 
  

I want to talk about engagement.
Mental/emotional/logical
engagement
stimulation
simulation
situation

I want to talk about my most poignant and intense passion.





I want to talk about music.





As it turns out, music has basically always been a thing. Egypt has harps and flutes 4000 BCE. Before that, different types of drums had a prominent place in many religious ceremonies. We don't know who was the first primitive human to bang 2 items together for enjoyment rather then function. And that hardly matters anyway.

Although music has little to no actual functional use, (excluding war drums or signaling horns), it developed all over the world. Unlike "agriculture," "animal domestication," or religion, it cannot be traced back to a specific region where it originated and then spread. Because where there were humans, there was music.

It's particularly interesting to note the significance of this phenomenon. Something of minimal survival value, developing all over the world at a time where there was no time for fooling around.

It's actually quite amazing.

Music must really just be such a natural part of being human. I can think of no other explanation.



When you play music, it engages such an enormous part of your brain. It's one of the few activities that stimulates both the left brain, (as the player has to take note of chords, rhythm, accidentals, scales, etc) and right, (musical expression and interpretation, dynamics, timing), that it strengthens the layer of tissue, the corpus calloson that connects the 2. Well practiced musicians have great inner-brain connectivity.

It effects the way we feel.  In 2009, the University of London conducted a study, playing different moods of music for different people, and monitoring the results. Predictably, those who listened to sad music were more likely to see sadness in a neutral face, and those whose music was happy were more likely to see joy.

People of all types are drawn to it. Friedrich Nietzsche famously said, "Without music, life would be a mistake." There's a huge overlap in those who are musicians with those who do math. Religious people are spiritually moved by music. Young rebellious youth are drawn to different sounds. It has always been a way for those in pain to express themselves. Jazz in the Harlem Renascence. Rap now.  Classical. Rock. Folk. Country. Independent. Alternative. Hip Hop

It is extraordinary




F L O W

Playing music has been the biggest passion I've had from the moment I took my first piano lesson 11 years ago. But even back then, playing music was more of an obligation then a pleasure.

It honestly wasn't  until I picked up a guitar for the first time 3 years ago that I fell in love.

Cutting the callouses hurt. Bar chords were a joke.


But I kept playing.

I taught myself "Here Comes the Sun" by the Beatles, and to this day, whenever I pick up a guitar, that is the first song that comes out.
It's natural.

But then I fell in love again.

I am convinced that guitar was meant to be with. Simple knowledge of music theory and technique open up unlimited possibilities.
 And as a sophomore, I wrote my first song.
It's a song that I look back on with a smile and a small shake of my head.
It has no key signature, no pattern, just a random melody finger picked on whatever chord sounded good.
I never wrote it down. But I will never forget it.

You see, I fell in love with music that day because I realized how extraordinary writing music is.
That little makeshift melody had never been played before in the entire world.
Maybe something similar to it, but it had never been played the way I played it.
Literally the first time that tune was ever played, it was in my hands, in my room.

And I was the only one to hear it.

This may seem selfish, but I find so much satisfaction in laying on my hammock, picking out a melody until I am satisfied, internalizing it, and then forgetting it. Never writing it down. Being the only person in the world to hear it.

This is flow for me.

My guitar goes where ever I go, because it is my soul. I'm not an overly expressive or emotional person as is, but a guitar tugs my soul out of my body and lays it on the table for all to see.



The truly amazing thing, is it's not just music that does this.
 It's like the air around us is surrounded with strings of color and emotion and when you create something, whether that is piece of writing or abstract art, a photo or a tweet, you are pulling the colorful strings out of air and weaving them into a unique tapestry that is the first and last of it's kind.
Because we have the power of creation.
To actually put something in the world that wasn't there before.
That blows my mind.


Without me, that little awkward sophomore plucked out guitar melody would never have been played.
Those combinations of color on my latest abstract painting would never come together in that particular way.
The words of this very post would have never been woven together.

That blows my mind.

It's an empowering thought.


Ah right now I am 'tsk tsk tsk'ing myself for not having a thesis statement. This post has been all over the place, from 4000 BCE to my bedroom. It drives me crazy when there is no thesis statement. I better make one up really quick. 

It may not be music for you. But everyone has something that gives their mind 'flow'. Something exciting, stimulating, engaging. Something that, when they do, releases them from all worries and fears.

I can't play guitar as much as I'd like. I'm too busy.

Maybe it's time we all took a step out of life, if even for just a moment, and did what we loved. Create things. Bring art into this world.

I feel like that is what 'transcendentalism' which is honestly the whole theme of my blog, is about. Simplifying life to what makes you excited to be alive.

So that's my thesis. Do what you love.

F L O W


Sunday, February 7, 2016

Stop telling me to take off my hat

When a baby is born, the one of the first things you do is put a hat on its head.

The head is the area of intense blood flow, and the vessels of the scalp are particularly vulnerable to external cooling. The blood drops in temperature, lowering the core body temperature.

A baby's head is also larger in proportion to the rest of its body, and often doesn't have hair to insulate the delicate skin; thus exacerbating the process of hypothermia.

It is very important that their head is protected.

Hats from the moment we are born.  Both physical and social. After all, baby girls get pink hats and baby boys get blue. Categorized from the beginning.

People who are Construction workers. Bicyclists. Fire fighters. They wear hats to protect them.  Obviously a construction worker is more then a construction worker, and can have dreams and aspirations and personify traits that have nothing to do with building buildings.


But the hat keeps that worker safe.

Call me fake if you want, but just because I don't show the sad parts of my personality often does not mean the happy parts I do show are fake. I wear my musician's hat. My artist's hat. My "I love calculus" hat.
My happy hat when I'm sad.
My intimidating hat when I'm scared.

Because sometimes hats protect the parts of us that are most vulnerable. Sometimes you just have to suit up and do the job.

Wearing a hat doesn't make you fake. How can it? It's yours, and you choose to wear it.

I don't care about the hats others put on me. I only have one head. And I choose what's on it.

Stop telling me to take my hat off. Because of I took it off just to appease people, that would be the fake part.









Sunday, January 24, 2016

I'm going to try extremely hard not to make this cliche

The "backspace" button is by far the most overused key on the keyboard. 

Actually the " " button might be.

Whatever. 

While the " " button is probably necessary, the "backspace" button is not. 

Except for spelling errors. I have a lot of those.

Whatever.

Honestly though, that "backspace" is used far too often. Personally, for every 25 words I've write, I've deleted 5 of them. Either I think what I said could be said in a different way, or, more likely then not, I want to take back what I've said. 

Or there is a spelling error. That's probably the number one reason actually.

Whatever.

5:20 words. Deleted:kept. That's a lot. Not counting spelling.

In a year, I probably type 300 pages. Assuming I write in double space, that's 75,000 words. That means I've deleted 18,750 words. That's 75 imperfect pages I've deleted in order to produce 300 pages that I think are pristine. 

That's a lot of pages. 1,350 pages in my entire life.

Expect I wasn't typing pages when I was 0 or 2 I guess. So a few less then 1,350 pages I've deleted. But that's still a lot of pages.

Assuming everyone is as meticulous with their writing as me, 525,000,000,000 pages are deleted every year. 


That's assuming that everyone writes double space. Also that everyone writes. But I guess there are people who don't write at all. But there are also people who write for a living. So I'll say it averages out. I might be off by a few billion.

Whatever.

It's still a lot of pages. It's like Atlas Shrugged times 450 million. 

Shoot. 

I hope some of those pages weren't as good and revolutionary as Atlas Shrugged. 

Some probably were. 

Whatever. 

That's a lot of ideas. A lot of revolution and passion deleted because it wasn't "good enough" or could be "said better." Or because we wanted to take them back. 

Imagine all those text messages typed but not sent. Letters and emails written in anger and frustration, or love and adoration- words deleted and papers ripped, for fear of what the reader would think if they knew what we thought. 

Every 'politically controversial' topic or 'offensive phrase' that we have used that "backspace" button on. Every comment we've typed on Facebook that we've never posted because what will they THINK and I don't know if I can STAND UP for what I BELIEVE like that and what if they think I'm STUPID or IGNORANT and I don't want anyone to FEEL that way about me and I CARE so much about what everyone THINKS about me and I want my writing to be PERFECT because I HAVE TO BE PERFECT.


I mean, or there's just spelling errors. 

I have a lot of those.

I'm really bad at spelling. 

Whatever.

So I have been writing this introduction without using the backspace.

Except for spelling .

Whatever. 

Honestly, you have no idea how much pressure there is to type everything right the first time. I've probably wanted to restart this introduction like 5 times and talk about something a little more germane. Maybe talk about something deep and typical like how dark life is, I kind of feel like that's how a lot of the writing in this class is going to be. Not that it's bad. I just really don't want to be cliche I guess. 

Shoot I feel like I maybe offended someone by just saying those things about how been deep and philosophical is cliche. ahh I'm sorry

No backspace though  

Only forward 

Whatever. 

I choose the name I did "aa Jack Napier" for some deep philosophical reason that my intro may or may not allude to.

Secretly the "aa" is literally just because I wanted my name to be listed first on the alphabetical list on writers. 

Maybe that in itself is a deep and philosophical reason. 

Whatever. 

I want this blog to be about what I actually think. That's why for not only this post, but for every post I make, I will not be using the backspace. If there's anyplace for raw and imperfect writing, it's probably this class. I want to be real. 

Except for spelling. 

I'm really bad at spelling.